What’s New?

Not much!

Still no word from South Africa. Work is a bit chaotic right now…we’re going through a big restructuring process and people are dropping like flies. I think my job is safe, but one can never tell. It’s definitely a bad time to ask for a leave of absence, though. Gotta come up with a new plan.

I bumped in to my long-time crush the other day. I still think there’s real possibility there, but there’s a hurdle I just can’t seem to get over. OK, a few hurdles. But I’ll figure it out somehow. He’s been very encouraging on this whole dropping-everything-and-going-to-Africa thing. I hope it’s not just to get me off the continent! But I don’t think I’ll see him again until after the holidays.

I caught up with my gay husband and my gay lover this week, which was good. My gay husband really wants me to move to DC to be near him, which I agree would be great. I’m just not sure that I can move to be near him just to share him with his boyfriend:) And I’m going to be able to see my gay lover and his boyfriend on my trip to my parents’ for Christmas. If only I were a gay man… Why are all the great men in my life gay? How did I become the woman with a posse of gay men around me? I guess it doesn’t matter–I wouldn’t trade either of them for a… Well, maybe.

Played poker last weekend for the first time in a while. Just me and the guys from the regular game. It was really good to catch up and just play, even though my game was crap! I really need to get some practice in. Even though I was playing such shit, I managed to get to heads up with a pretty big chip lead, but after four hours and 10 diet cokes, I lost my concentration. It’s the first time I have played at the bar since I quit drinking, and I might’ve overdone it with the caffeine. But, I didn’t have any desire to drink, so that’s good. Over four months without a drop! Not bad.

So, in honor of the holidays, my Christmas Wish List: (Don’t worry, I don’t expect any of it!)
1. iPhone
2. bicycle
3. flat-screen TV
4. a new job
5. an idea of what to get for my family

OK, that list made me realize how lucky I am. I don’t really want or need much of anything. But, I would love a bicycle…

So it’s been a little while…

Every day I think of things I would like to write on this thing, but every day something pops up and keeps me from having a chance… That, and I sure as hell can’t access this thing at work any more. As much as I don’t want to work there anymore, I think it best to not get fired for blogging. Although it is a new game of mine to see how many rules I can break in a day!

Life hasn’t changed all that much in the past few weeks, and yet it’s completely different. I feel like I might be a totally different person than I was a few months ago. With my theoretical decision to leave this town, I have cut so many ties. And let so many others go slack. I suppose I wanted to make it easier to leave, but I realize that it might not have been the smartest decision I’ve ever made. Then again, I had surrounded myself with a lot of people that I didn’t necessarily care for, so maybe it needed to happen regardless.

My days are pretty quiet now. I have been extremely successful in giving up alcohol. I have never really had a moment of temptation, which is good. Even when I won a pitcher of beer at a pub quiz, I didn’t care to partake. But, for the most part, my time in the bar scene is past. Except that I am writing this in my favorite bar–which doesn’t mean a thing since I am drinking orange juice and having a grilled cheese. Everyone has their personal Starbucks and this is mine.

As pathetically quiet as my life has become, I am all sorts of wrapped up in the new TV season. Just watched “Chuck” and I thought it was pretty funny.

I really need a hobby.

So now I am here, at the bar, to work on some job applications. One in Colorado, near P. and the soon-to-be Little G. The other in DC, near my gay husband. Either location suits me just fine. If only someone would hire me!!!

Strangely, in my hurry to get out the door at my job, I’ve actually been getting a lot of kudos at work lately. It’s like they know I’ve got one foot out the door and they are going to try to suck me back in once again. My worst fear is that they’ll offer me a big promotion. I don’t know that I have the strength to stick to my guns and get the hell out.

On top of all this–my parents are coming at the end of the month. Well, now it might be just my mom. My dad is not doing well these days, and as per usual, they aren’t telling me everything. As much as I would love to see my dad right now, it will be nice to spend some quality time with mom. I want to treat her to a fabulous meal and just have a peaceful weekend. With dad, there is always a whole load of drama. Not necessarily from him, but all around him.

That’s all for now, I suppose… Maybe when I finish one application I’ll allow myself time to write more.

Top Places I’m Currently Searching for a Job

Portland, OR
Seattle, WA
Denver, CO
San Francisco, CA
Washington, DC
Boston, MA
Austin, TX

Oh, and anywhere else. Please feel free to send suggestions.
(D. – I know yours!)