Ahh…

I’m probably breaking a lot of rules even putting this into words… but I’ve just had the most wonderful evening. I went out on an anti-date (the date that never claims to be such) and it was one of the best anti-dates of my life.

I knew from the moment we first planned to spend time together that we were going to get along. He’s the creature I would create if God gave me the paintbrush. I worry that he might be too much like me… I worry that I was too much like me. Mostly I worry that he’ll just end up treating me like every other guy I’ve ever had a connection with–like one of the boys.

Most of all, I worry that I’ve taken myself too far into the dream of what might be to return safely. It’s been so very long since I’ve met a guy that I share a worldview with AND respect at the same time. I think I get ahead of myself sometimes.

I need to stop thinking.

[The morning after:
Um, gross. This is why people shouldn't drink and blog.

And yes, I drank beer. Not too much, although apparently enough to be that girl. The one who writes such crap. I thought about deleting the post, but it is what it is. Good lord.]

A Short Moment for Mama Africa

What Dewey Decimal Range Am I? (I am such a nerd!)

Sashafire’s Dewey Decimal Section:
009 [Unassigned]

Class:
000 Computer Science, Information & General Works

Contains:
Encyclopedias, magazines, journals and books with quotations.

What it says about you:
You are very informative and up to date. You’re working on living in the here and now, not the past. You go through a lot of changes. When you make a decision you can be very sure of yourself, maybe even stubborn, but your friends appreciate your honesty and resolve.

Find your Dewey Decimal Section at Spacefem.com

That’s HOT!

The Next President

A New Day…

Something is in the air.  Today is a new day–I am certain of it.  I know that I am hardly an optimist, but I have felt something brewing for the past month.  And I know, in the early moments of this day that something good is on its way.  Something’s coming, I don’t know what it is but it is gonna be great. Could be.  Who knows?

The Past Month

OK, ever since Facebook entered into my life, I can’t seem to visit my old friend WordPress.  Sorry!

So, this past month… Let’s see.

Got offered a job that pays almost twice what I make now.  And, with a decision I’m sure to regret, I turned the offer down.  Crazy, right?  Probably.  But, I wouldn’t have been happy doing the work.  I’ve spent so long looking for a better job that I can’t just give up for a better paycheck.  I’ll take a pay cut to find something I like.

Which I might have found… I talked with someone else about a job I really want, and I think it was tentatively offered to me, but then… Nothing.  Haven’t heard from the Director since.  Hmm… Fingers once again crossed.

What else?  I took some time off of work, which was fantastic!  Went to the park everyday and just enjoyed the freedom.  It’s been hard getting back into a work routine though.  I guess that’s the downside of a staycation.

Went to the reunion.  Ugh.  It was pretty bad.  I was pretty much the ONLY single person there.  All the guys are old, fat and bald and all the ladies are very… I don’t know… Southern?  Conservative?  Desperate to get into the country club?  Maybe I’m not being fair, but I was not impressed with how my class has aged and developed.  Thank god I didn’t actually travel to get to the thing.

I did see a few people that I had missed.  One of which has moved to Nashville and has talked me into doing a half marathon next month.  Oh, lord.  Don’t worry, I’m planning on walking it, but I still have to keep up a pretty speedy pace to finish officially (and get the medal!!!  I’m obsessed with the medal.)  Considering how badly I wanted to lose weight and get in shape, the timing is good.  So, I’ve started “training”– A lot of walking, a little running and eating better.  The goal is to lose 15 pounds by Christmas.  Do-able, but still tough.  However, I did run for more than 30 minutes today, so how ’bout that?!

What else?  I’m falling back in love with music.  This week it’s Ray LaMontagne and Brett Dennen and their new albums.  And Bon Iver!  I’ve just been introduced and I’m a big fan.  Last week, I spent the days with Miles Davis and Nina Simone and that was pretty good too.  I’m enjoying it all so much that I have to force myself to watch TV.  (I’m completely out of DVR space, thanks to Season Two of Mad Men.  I couldn’t watch it when it came on, because I wasn’t ready to watch them chain smoke.  Now it’s not a problem, but I just haven’t found the time to sit down and watch it all.)

So, just because I can: